Still kind of nervous about actually accepting the job… 

I have until Monday to give them a final answer.  Right now I’m leaning really far toward “yes”.  But, I’m still scared.  I know I’ll be busy and stressed out and feel like a crazy person.  But I also know that I can do it, and that I won’t be alone. 

I don’t know.  I’m going with my family to check out the town tomorrow and look at apartment options and stuff like that.  So, maybe that will help me decide.

Probably not though.  I think deep down I’ve already decided. 

So, I made another pro/con list and now I feel like I should take the job if it’s offered? 

What’s going on?  Why am I getting so confused and mixed up?  :P 

Got a lead on another job today 

Beginning piano teacher for a private school.  Sounds pretty good.  Just gotta figure out how to get an application.

Still haven’t heard anything back from the job I interviewed for on Monday.  I’m starting to lean closer to not taking it.  Just because it would be so much for me as a brand new beginning teacher.

If I were to take that job, I would be responsible for beginning choir, beginning band, two high school choirs, high school band, and a period of 6th grade general music.  And that’s all by myself - I wouldn’t be an assistant director or have another teacher to work with.  I feel like that would be incredibly overwhelming for me, and I’m not sure I could handle it. 

I don’t really sing and I don’t know a thing about teaching choir.  I know I could learn how to do it, but learning how to do it while also learning how to start a beginning band and choir and come up with a total of 6 different lesson plans a night, not to mention figuring out how to teach marching band… it just seems so overwhelming.  I really don’t feel like that’s something I should do. 

The principal also mentioned that the band is in a fragile state, after losing one director to a budget cut and one who got a little too friendly with the female students.  They need someone to trust and someone who isn’t going to leave them any time soon - someone long term.  And I don’t know what my future holds, but if I stick with Jon (which I am planning to do), once he’s out of grad school in 2-3 years and we get engaged, we’ll probably end up moving away (of course that’s a lot of “if’s”).  And that wouldn’t leave me a long time with this band. 

Ugh, so many thoughts.  I know, I should accept the job if they offer it because I may not get another offer anywhere and having a job is better than having no job… but I don’t feel like I’m the right teacher for this position, and I just want what’s best for those students.  I don’t feel like I would be the best for them.

From any of my fellow music educators, help?

I should just go to bed 

I’m exhausted.  Today was long in too many ways.

I’ve come up with a pros and cons list, more pros than cons.  However one very big con is that I will be all alone as the only band/choir teacher in the school. 

I’m sure I’ll have more time to think on it though.  If they’re going to call me and offer the job, it won’t happen tomorrow and probably not even Wednesday.  I can just relax and think about what I would say and I’ll find out by later this week if I’ll need to make that decision.

In the meantime, I should just rest and relax.

Not a great ride tonight 

Nav was so distracted.  I guess I was too.  I felt like we were fighting eachother the whole time.

It got my mind off of the job at least.  A little bit.  But now I’m thinking about it again.  Mir.

Maybe I should make a pros/cons list about the job.  So I have a better idea about what I should do if it’s offered. 

Had my interview this morning 

I think it went really well.  They were all very nice and seemed to like me. 

But now I’m terrified that if they call me and ask me if I want the job, I won’t know what to say!  I feel very confident that I could to the band part, even teaching a beginning band with all of the instruments together.  I’m scared about teaching choir though.  I don’t know anything about that! 

So if they call me, what can I say?  I know what I should say - yes!  Because I need a job for this fall.  But I’m very worried about choir.  And even a little bit about beginning band (mainly percussion, I don’t have any idea how to start that…).

I’m so confused now.  I thought having the interview would make me feel better, but now I’m just more confused than ever.

Thinking about the jobs made me restless so I’ve just now finished up as much of the application as I can 

One of these positions sounds really good - probably better than a combination band/choir job - and it’s only an hour and a half from home.  It’s elementary music, but lately I’ve come to the realization that I can teach elementary music.  And I think I would enjoy it too. 

So tomorrow morning maybe I’ll wake up extra early before band camp, print off the application, fill it out, scan it back into the computer and email it off to the principal and band director.

That would be good.

Now, time for bed.

Looking at jobs again and thinking about applying just made me incredibly nervous  

Like, my stomach feels kinda sicky and nervous.  :(  I don’t know, I guess I should just go to bed and deal with it tomorrow.

Just found a couple more jobs to apply for! 

I’m very excited about my interview on Monday, but I want to have some other options incase it doesn’t work out.  I came across a couple tonight that I’ll have to send in my resume for tomorrow.

Unfortunately it is late, and I need to get some sleep.  :P

Job interview next Friday!!! 

:D 

I think it’s time to go for a ride :) 

And check on Nav’s little lumpy thing… :P

Also, I called up the superintendent of the school district and he told me how to apply and also talked with me a little bit about why I wanted to teach there and stuff like that.  Almost like a very mini phone interview!  :D  I sent in all my documents as soon as I got off the phone with him, so hopefully something will work out with this! 

Just got word of a job I’m going to apply for! 

And it’s not like this job was just posted out. The principal has been contacting people looking for people, so they really need someone. It’s only 2 hours from me, and it would be vocal and instrumental music grades 6 to 12.

That might be a bit of a challenge, but I think I could do it :) I’d just like at least a chance to do an interview, and I think I’ll have a good chance of getting one at this school. I’m going to call over there after my last band camp duty of the day and see what I can find out! :)

I applied for three jobs today!!! 

And that’s after I searched and sifted through different websites, some saying a job was open and then others saying it was taken, etc., etc…

I’m impressed with myself, and I feel like I’ve actually accomplished something.  :)  Today has been a pretty excellent day.

Now if I can just get an interview… 

I’m never gonna find a job… 

This all seems so hard and frustrating. I just want to have a job so I can finally stop worrying about it and finally feel like I’m going somewhere in my life.

I feel failure-ish right now. :( It’s times like this when I wish Jon were closer so I could go and be with him and just curl up with him and forget about my problems.

Oh my goodness I found the job that I want 

Middle School Band Director and Assistant High School Band Director.  Great band program.  Just an hour and a half from home.  And I’ve worked with the head director last year at band camp so I’m already familiar with him.  :D  I emailed the director asking for some information on how to apply, and just to get my name out there and make it more personal than just finding the application and sending it in. 

Oh goodness, I really hope I can get an interview for this one!