Got a lead on another job today 

Beginning piano teacher for a private school.  Sounds pretty good.  Just gotta figure out how to get an application.

Still haven’t heard anything back from the job I interviewed for on Monday.  I’m starting to lean closer to not taking it.  Just because it would be so much for me as a brand new beginning teacher.

If I were to take that job, I would be responsible for beginning choir, beginning band, two high school choirs, high school band, and a period of 6th grade general music.  And that’s all by myself - I wouldn’t be an assistant director or have another teacher to work with.  I feel like that would be incredibly overwhelming for me, and I’m not sure I could handle it. 

I don’t really sing and I don’t know a thing about teaching choir.  I know I could learn how to do it, but learning how to do it while also learning how to start a beginning band and choir and come up with a total of 6 different lesson plans a night, not to mention figuring out how to teach marching band… it just seems so overwhelming.  I really don’t feel like that’s something I should do. 

The principal also mentioned that the band is in a fragile state, after losing one director to a budget cut and one who got a little too friendly with the female students.  They need someone to trust and someone who isn’t going to leave them any time soon - someone long term.  And I don’t know what my future holds, but if I stick with Jon (which I am planning to do), once he’s out of grad school in 2-3 years and we get engaged, we’ll probably end up moving away (of course that’s a lot of “if’s”).  And that wouldn’t leave me a long time with this band. 

Ugh, so many thoughts.  I know, I should accept the job if they offer it because I may not get another offer anywhere and having a job is better than having no job… but I don’t feel like I’m the right teacher for this position, and I just want what’s best for those students.  I don’t feel like I would be the best for them.

From any of my fellow music educators, help?